"The best way out is always through." ~ Robert Frost
Courtesy of
Barbara Scheide Photography.
On Monday, I got to the office at 8:30 a.m. I ate a cranberry-orange bagel with butter and drank a chai - whole milk, strong, hot. I had two real estate loan closings scheduled for that day, and I was awaiting the closing packets. I skipped lunch. I made eleven phone calls, typed eight letters, and drafted two wills. I finished the last closing at 5:20 p.m. I had not smoked a cigarette in twenty-one hours, so I went to the post office with the secondary (primary?) goal being to smoke one on the way. I returned to the office and assessed the situation. I decided that I should eat before doing anymore assessing.
I checked my bank account. I decided that scrounging something from the office cubbard and refrigerator would be fine. I ate a peanut butter sandwich, a banana, three mini tootsie rolls, and drank some Mountain Dew. I assessed the situation more completely: I have lots to do.
I decided to start with housekeeping. After all, I work better in a neater, more organized environment. I turned on some music and began. A little after midnight, I unfurled my soft, thick, extra large blanket in the back room. I put the pillow down, then put me down. I awoke at 5:50 a.m. and took a bath in the sink. It was Tuesday, and, except for some modifications of the times and the clients and phone calls and typing, it proceeded the same way. It ended the same way. It is now Wednesday, and I hope to have the housekeeping/administrative tasks complete by tomorrow. Then I will re-assess.
I love what I am doing. I am excited about the potential. The hours are long, but I am working for me. That makes such a big difference. I do want to share the load with someone. With two someones, actually. A decent paralegal would be great, but to date I have had no luck finding one, much less hiring one. Also, someone to crawl into bed with and hold, and be held by… that would be good. Someone to share the stories of nameless clients who are troublemakers or upon whom trouble falls like rain or who have needs we all would like to have because they are so successful….
If you have read this blog for awhile, a LONG while, then you have read some of my beliefs regarding relationships. Currently, I must acknowledge that I have little time to give someone. Of course, that particular position is one I have been in for awhile and only has been exacerbated by my current venture. So, I find myself desiring someone who understands, or someone whose wants and needs aren’t so great that an evening here or there would be enough. In time, I am sure things will change.
The possibilites are exciting, so understand that this post is not negative. Not at all. In fact, the cool thing is that if I find a paralegal, then I will have more time. Imagine if I found a paralegal who also fulfilled the second want/need! Don’t worry. I understand the whole new set of problems that would create. i’m just saying….
December sucked, economically. Business was slow, yet I still splurged on Christmas. I’d do it again, though. January is proceeding nicely, and the first quarter of this year will probably change my life in many ways. Outside of the business, I am considering moving into a cute little house not far from the office. I need furniture, though… and dishes… and sheets and towels… and lots more stuff. That’s exciting, though - decorating a new place.
For now, it’s back to work. One of these days, I will continue work on the new site.
